L a s t S u m m e r;

Monday, October 30, 2006

picture daee

urgh. pictures cant upload=(

rather not blog. dont wanna acknowledge anything im feeling or doin.

need to focus for the upcoming o's in two days! haha.

will blog after two weeks so to those who constantly come to read im so sorry.

take loads of care!! =)

btw. tnx for tagging ppl.

muackxx!

xx signed off at 10:10 AM

Thursday, October 26, 2006

hari raya

[odd pink]

sigificant hari raye
that struck
right at the heart
sighs

~did i make the right choice?

bergema suara takbir di angkasa

selembut bayu

meresap bayu ke dalam jiwa

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
maaf zahir dan batin

xx signed off at 11:05 AM

Friday, October 20, 2006

`out

back to blog again.

managed to complete one chap of humans ystrdae. LOL. pathetic ryt?? then again. its betta than nothing. and anyway. i managed to link. so next chap that i'll be studying will be the COLD WAR. hahahaha. why do i make it sound so evil?? o.O

will be out today like i said. but this time we changed our mind and decided to go orchard (again??!!!) and then plaza sing. wanted to go orchard coz there's an offer to watch movies at cathay cineleisure. that's what i read up on the net. so hopefully the discount does exist. haha!

i so wanna watch the prestige. my two all-time fav heroes are playing. christian bale&hugh jackman!!!! ive been in love in christian bale since batman begins and fell in love w hugh jackman ever since i saw him on TRL so clean&shaved. whats more, both of them can really act!!! =P

was goin thru sum old letters and i found sumtink wic i tot i threw away sum time back.

it was a red heart with 5 words on it.
sigh.

anywy. im betta now. guess coz i dont wanna let anything affect my focus and concentration for the upcoming exams. am able to sleep betta=)

raye's in FOUR days!!! can u believe it?? and im not even havin the feel. soo sad seyy.

oh well. betta be off. crazee cuzzie calling me from skul nagging at me to get off the com and listen to her crap instead=P

haha

will blog on...urm....after the o's???? haha. coz mon the eve's of raya then after that is the o's. soo...we'll see when im gonna blog again laa. haha!

muacks!!

i stared at those five words

and recalled

05.08.04

xx signed off at 10:04 AM

facts

somthing huimin got me to doooo. mean her to actually make me read her blog. haha! then again if she didnt tell me i would still read it. haha!

7 Random Facts about me
1. simple yet complicated
2. happy yet depressed
3. satisfied yet unsatisfied
4. chaotic yet silent
5. concerned yet nonchalant
6. attentive yet inattentive
7. smart yet dumb

`adapated frm my friendster profile=P

7 things that scare me
1. god
2. natural disasters
3. wars

4. cockcroaches!!! BIG NONO!

5. rodents esp rats. ewww.

6. losing someone i love dearly
7. losing sumone i love dearly

7 favourite music at the moment
1. get up by ciara
2. sexy back by justin
3. my heart by irwansyah
4. mera haath hain in fanaa
5. call me when you're sober by evanesence
6. give it up to me by sean paul
7. mr Q by jolin tsai

7 people i fancy
1. him
2. harlina
3. hj
4. mariam
5. rabia
6. wan
7. poh li

7 things i say most
1. LOL
2. woiii
3. urm
4. wad da hell
5. just shut up
6. omg

7 things i like most
1. mp3
2. computer coz then i get to blog
3. home cordless phone which i hog all day wit cuzzie
4. 2 tatty teddys 2 special ppl gave
5. the ring
6. pictures/neoprints
7. old letters that ppl wrote for me=)

7 people next to do this
1. fadhillah
2. becky
3. ernst
4. natiara
5. felina
6. peacock
7. poh li

xx signed off at 9:26 AM

Thursday, October 19, 2006

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just got back from school.

fuhh.

what can i say abt science pract just now??

urm. easy? big NONO. difficult?? not that bad either. guess it was mediocre but i cldnt do bio tho. wish i had read up more on the transpiration chapter. oh well. no point regretting.

tomorow im goin out..
hooray!!!
lurve my cuzzie sooooo much for always being there. she's the sister i never had=P

went to tekka ystrdae actually. haha. when i was supposed to be at home mugging. oh well. lol. i lurve the deepavali lighting!!!!! really really nice. expecially the peacocks. hmm.

anyone knows what's the significance of peacocks to indians?
please enlighten me
the question has been bugging me since my mom gave a passing comment on it ystrdae. hmm.

i got my whole chunk of work out to do.
better start on my humanities.
havent touched it yet=s

my literature books actually went dusty!!
no
im not exaggerating.
haha. kindda shocked also. so im doin lit, hist, math&poa today.

got nothing more to blog about so will stop here.

will blog again tomorw before i go outt=)

p.s i jsut learned a new game from my besties-mira&iL=P

~behind every smile, there is a tear

said by mr hj. soooo true. haha. he's one of the few that knows me really well=)

so many getting close

please

leave me in my own solitude

i dun need ur l0ve

just his

xx signed off at 2:43 PM

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

someone teach me the meaning of happiness
i seem to have forgotten

my heart

disini kau dan aku
terbiasa bersama
menjalani kasih bersama
bahagia ku dengan mu

pernakah kau menguntai
hari paling indah
ku ukir nama kita berdua
di sini syurga kita

bila kita mencintai yang lain
mungkinkah hati ini akan tegar
sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
sayang ku akan hilang

if we love sombody
could we be this strong
i will fight to win
our love will conquer all

wont erase my love
even just one night
our love will stay in my heart
my heart

xx signed off at 12:33 PM

sleepless nights

*hui min darling&me

-i remember when
u came to me that night
u said forever
that u would never
let me go
here i am again
with nothing left this time
i dun wanna
but i gotta
let you go-

sleepless nights.
work seems to be piling up by the day.
hardly have any time for myself.

pity mommy coz i hardly talk to her nowadays. been so busy mugging in my room while she's outside watching tv and reading her book. i'd usually meet up with her after work or something but its been ages since i did that. and she complained when i was asleep thinking i wouldnt hear. lol. my mommy's cute=P

i suppose i do need to do abit more of family bonding.

but first

i need to find time for myself.

lol. i tink im pushing too hard.

but who cares right?
~~definitely not you.~~

still havent decided who to go prom with. have a couple of diffrent groups of people to choose from. then comes the question who im gonna sit with. haha. havent really given much thought to it. will make full use of the 10days aft o's to consider my options. LOL.

i received the sweeeeeetest and best piece of advice from an email. hehe! an OLD FRIEND emailed me and it really touched me that he noticed. aww. haha. really. i think that was the best piece of advice anyone could give me and he did it even without me telling him about my situation. sooo a BIG THANK YOU to him!!!
i hope u're ok now=)

tomrow's sci practs!!!! OMG!!!!

haha. okok. no panic attack. haha. evryone's telling me that there's nothing study but they WRONG. haha. there's always something to study right??

haha.

enuff blogging for me.

will blog after sci pract tmr. going joo chiat on fri. yay!

dikau telah ku simpan
di sudut hati
agar aku dapat melupakan
segala kepedihan
segala kesedihan

FOCUS

xx signed off at 11:40 AM

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

*memoriex

there. uploaded a couple of pics already. have more but too lazy to upload laa. therex always tomorow. haha.

is it just me or do my eyes look extra small& i look so chines-ey??
LOL

actually i loove all the pics coz each has a significance, a certain memory i want to preserve.
*pictures are time-stoppers

gonna miss my small family
-poh li mama
-eli jie
-hj didi
-zz uncle

my bestie
-mariam

my gurl-frens
-rabia
-lisa
-erin

my darlings
-becky
-shao ying

my punching bag
-jackson

my tomato
-brandon

my crazee boy-frens
-fiz
-san
-silas
-hus

and im just listing from 4e2. haha. wait till i list from the rest of the school. hehex)
each of them left with an impression and i will remember that.
okok. enuff about graduating already.

slept at 2am. im staying up later by the day. guess i have a lot of work to do. going off to school soon for bio&chem again but i havent revised the topics ms lin asked to. oops. didnt have time ystrdae. was completing anglo chinese papr 1, temasek paper 2, poa set C and mcq ques of the new set of ws ms lin&mrs low gave. fuhh.

hmph. i cant sign in to msn=(

yay! i'll be goin joo chiat with sumone on thurs. shhhhh.
haha. uat suspense jerr...

yay again! i have a prom date. not one but two. in fact mayb more than dat. hahahaha!

betta be off. will be back tmr to upload more pics&blog before my sci pract on thurs.

p.s im so not gonna JUMP DOWN or let anything ruin my future laa hj, mariam&ziz!!!!

*beneath this hard exterior
is a soft sumone
in need of love
not hurt

in a state of denial

mere lies

to pick myself up again

and forget

forget all the pain

and longing

xx signed off at 10:14 AM

grad daee

xx signed off at 9:54 AM

Monday, October 16, 2006

[[was]]

sumhow. i cant seem to be able to upload the other pics. hmm. tmr den=)

menapak jalan yg menjauh

tentukan arah yg ku mau

tempatan aku pada satu peristiwa

yg membuat hati lara

di dekat engkau aku tenang

sendu matamu penuh tanya

misteri hidup akankah menghilang

dan bahagia di akhir cerita

cinta, tegarkan hatiku

tak mau sesuatu merenggut engkau

naluriku berkata, tak ingin terulang lagi

kehilangan cinta, hati bagai raga tak bernyawa

aku junjung petuahmu

cintai dia yg mencintaiku

hatinya dulu berlayar, kini telah menepi

bukankah hidup kita akhirnya harus bahagia

cinta biar saja ada

yg terjadi biar saja terjadi

bagaimana pun hidup hanya cerita

cerita tentang yg meninggalkan

dan yg ditinggalkan

cinta

In silence we hurt. In absence we long. Sometimes we're noticed, sometimes we're not. In the end, the heart will know where it belongs. Listen to its tears and you'll find your answer. When you find where your heart lies, stay true to it.

`abdul aziz

~pergi saja cintamu pergi

bilang saja pada semua

biar semua tahu adanya

diriku ini sendiri~

`menghitung hari by kris dayanti

xx signed off at 2:02 PM

f.r.e.s.h

*changed the skin. wanted a fresh start

-you gave me all the love i needed but left me with a broken heart-

couldnt sleep the whole night. managed to catch a wink of sleep after sahur then woke up late for bio. anyway. still made it in time. just got back now. waiting for hj to sms me so i can pass him my hist notes. hmm.

waiting

waiting

LOL. i noe im acting like a living corpse but the problem is i feel like one now.
i shdlnt be so pessimistic so im trying as hard as i can to at least sound happy. is it working?? haha.

the practicals are so near. 2 days away. really scaree. i usually flunk my practicals no matter how hard i try. sad uh? haha.

grad dae was great. took loads of pics. will upload them in my nxt entry. went to mjc. am given only two options of courses if im going dere.

econs, hist, malay at h2 math at h1
OR
econs, hist, literature at h2 math at h1

hmm. math is amath. can i cope?

suddenly i feel so unsure of myself. unable to make the simplest decisions. people tell me to just forget about it and pick myself up. to stay strong and i'll be ok. i wish it was as easy as they said. at least it wouldnt hurt so much.

will anyone be able to love, care for me as he did? will they be there just to listen like he did? will they hold me, comfort me as he did?

sigh.

why wont anyone understand? i need time so please just leave me in my own solitude.

Once upon a time I was falling in love

But now I'm only falling apart

There's nothing I can do

A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time there was light in my life

But now there's only love in the dark

Nothing I can say

A total eclipse of the heart

xx signed off at 12:20 PM

Sunday, October 15, 2006

-promises

i wish i could truly promise that i'd be happier.

drowning in my own tears
gotta pick myself up again
this time without u to pull me up
sigh

removed all signs of the past

even the one i requested to wear

ur letters are wet with my tears

significance of no 5-
05.08.04
05.03.05
15.10.06

xx signed off at 8:04 PM

Saturday, October 14, 2006

*in lurve wit this pic=)

i tend to be impulsive when it comes to matters of the heart
you are my water that douses this fire
i still need you......

tomorow is judgment day. sigh. we have so many obstacles ahead.

will upload more pics on mon
till then
bon voyage

~fly me to the moon and let me play among the stars

in other words please be true

in other words i lurve you~

xx signed off at 4:36 PM

Friday, October 13, 2006

it pains to see you care more for her than me

SIGHS

ive cried a million tears but have you even noticed one?

those few lines spoiled the entire perfect day i had.

perhaps

it is time to end it all

sigh.

i need a guide

someone

please

tell me what to do=(

xx signed off at 8:41 PM

Thursday, October 12, 2006

mom's sick.

poor her.

and now i have to do the BAKING ALONE!!!!!

omg!!

haha. hope she gets well soon. she can hardly walk=(

what's with evryone getting sick??? i wanna fall sick too*coughcough* LOL.

kk. im a bit cuckooo. think it's coz im TIRED. again?

yea. slept at 1am coz i studied. me&my books. think i should marry one of them. haha. crap again. *knocks head*
ouchh

dont think i'll be blogging as much. the FINAL leap is arrving soon.
i should just do it
yes. im a nike ambassador.
*dreaming*

oh ya.
tmr is GRAD DAY
am doing sumtink special for my classmates. shhhhhh=X

am also doin an extra sumtink special for 2friends&a teacher. hehe.

urm. but im struggling wit it. haha. anyway. betta be off. need to do math=)

p.s fad!!! dont bother cuming in to read ma bloggie for the weekend. haha. wun be blogging. im staying away form the computer MONSTER.
muahahaha

make me smile

and

laugh all over again

sigh

xx signed off at 2:20 PM

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

PROM DATE

anyone?

xx signed off at 3:03 PM

just got back home.
been studying straight since 9am.
fuhhhhh.
slight headche.
*urgh

to love or to be loved?

like farhan (superman) said, it's a bit of both. well. plainly becoz if all evryone wants to do is to be loved , then who will do the lurving?? haha. it's actually a bit complicated. people choose to be loved since it's more secure having less risks of enduring a heartbreak since u are loved and not the one loving.

how can a relationship work if it doesnt have both parties actively loving one another. lol.

it takes two hands to clap
it takes two to tango
right?

enuff about that.

i owe my dearest shao ying an apology. took sumtink from her blog. haha. it's copyrighted. sorr. i sortta changed it but it's still yours babe. tot she copied it from sumwhere. anyway, sorie sweetie..my bad=)

still got loads to cover for humanities&math. my other subjects are quite stable thnk god. lol.

hmm.

what's better?
to smile from a lie
or
to tear from a truth?

a lie gives temporary happiness and a truth gives eternal sadness. so which?

haha. i prefer a scar than to live in a lie. haha.

i feel empty

sighx

xx signed off at 2:24 PM

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

no sms, no news, nothing.
sigh.
sumtimes i feel i am forgotten......

yesterday was really tiring. came back frm studying wit fiz&san around 6+ den waited to break fast. managed to squeeze a lil bit of bio revision before watching the new chinese drama series at 9 and then america's next top model.
okok. i cant resist this any longer. the winner of antm is.................................
DANIELLE!!!!!!!
hah! ok. im sorry. i noe im a spoilsport but just this once. haha. cant believe she won!!!!!!! joanie's second with jade in third.
none of my friends watch antm so i cnt possibly tell them ryt? lol.

im not supposed to blog anymore actually. i mean everyone else seemed to have stopped blogging coz they're mugging BUT i really cant help it. im an avid blogger. anybody has the cure to it??? i really need it. lol.

new tv's cuming in tmr. yay!!! my tv went cuckoo after like 10years in our service. haha! so dad getting one and after all raya's cuming. helped mum with baking of kuih makmur ystrdae. mum usually does kuih makmur&kuih tart so i usually do the rest. havent really mastered the art of "cepit-ing" kuih makmur so mom wldnt let me near them. LOL.

wonder how im gonna do all the baking amidst the exams....
hmm...
gotta figure out a way coz my brothers are definitely not gonna help

betta be off now. need to be on my way to school already. i have history and poa class today. sianx to the max. haha!

suppoes to go geylang today. alaaaaaaaaaaa. mdm lee spoiled it with her dumb class=(

hope my bestie is ok. sigh.

evry second

evry min

evry hr

im missing u

*do you rbr??

xx signed off at 9:48 AM

Monday, October 09, 2006

just got back from poa&bio "consultation"

4 agonizing hours of studying

and im going for another 2hours of studying at mac with fiz&san all.

*pushing too hard??

the harder i push

the more i forget

all the pain

*just a fact for all those dumb guys out there that DO NOT seem to understand the female species.

A girl is weak in front of the man she loves the most

When a girl cries for you, she has chosen to push her ego aside and lurve you.

When a girl cries bcoz of you, look into her eyes. Cant u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?

Think.Which other girl has cried wif pure sincerity in front of you, bcoz of you?

She cries not to win ur sympathy but bcoz crying silently is no longer possible.

The pain, hurt, n agony has become too big a burden to be kept inside

-i have cried for you and before you. but have u felt the pain&worth of my tears?

xx signed off at 2:31 PM

zzzzzzzzz

sooo sleeepy.

LOL. ive been sleeping alot over the weekend. mom said it was coz i was mentally tired and not physically. guess i was thinking alot about...........

nobody's online so it's kindda boring. i got up especially early so i could use the com before my brother does. once he uses it, he'll get stuck for hoursssss den it'll be impossible for me to go online.

basirah just went online.
at least i have company
funny how me&him were talking about....

some things are just better left unsaid

I NEED TO FEEL

LOVED

and

WANTED

sigh.

i cant go on waiting foreva.

we're still holding on

but till wen? =(

tnx for making me feel better hj=)

xx signed off at 8:21 AM

Sunday, October 08, 2006

yes.

counter strike makes me feel better=)

xx signed off at 3:46 PM

urgh.

bad migraine.

sigh.

helping mum bake now actually.

...

im sooooo stressed right now. what will the future hold? haix.

so lost
so confused
why does it have to be so hard for us? =(

*went to geylang yestrdae. still as chaotic as ever.

sigh. please tell me what to do sumone...........

xx signed off at 2:27 PM

Friday, October 06, 2006

sweeeeeet day.

yes. that was what it was.

just a sweet day.

then again. any day spent with my bestie is a good wholly day.

went to bedok reservoir. i just needed to absorb and enjoy the tranquility of it all. saw many beautiful birds and lotsa turtles. or is it terapines? or..urm..tortoises? lol. i cant really tell the difference. haha.
but they were all so adorable. saw a couple of fishes. but it ws the peaceful beauty of nature that struck me most. managed to gather some time to read this book i borrowed from the school library. really good book.
spent about 3 hours there. time passed really fast.
i just really felt at ease. and without speaking much to each other somehow i enjoyd spending my time there with my bestie. tnx sweetie=)

oh ya. i also gained something from the trip.
a peace of mind&soul and also a fresh intake of oxygen. what with the trees an all. LOL.

the haze is really getting to me. hmm.

anyway. the NT level examinations are over. good for them all. hoping the best for their resultx)

the higher i climb
the lonelier i feel
the more u slip away
the further i drop
the harder i fall
and break
not only physically but
mentally, emotionally
not only did u break my heart
but u crushed my spirit.

kudos to mr lee for never failing to place that smile on my face, in my heart. i know i keep saying this but THANK YOU. i really just dont know how to express my gratitude. u're really an excellent friend hj=)

tnx for the sweet 'kiss' mr lee=P

why do i feel empty? sigh.

anyway. to my dearest "old friend:. any problem of yours is mine too. dont ever think that u're not worth my time coz i would go out of my way to help you as u've helped me. so cheer up=)

i cried till there were no more tears left.

im dried&dead.

yes.

im ready to let go.

xx signed off at 8:25 PM

Thursday, October 05, 2006

i had so many things to say in mind
yet
when i saw him
and sat with him
in the awkward
few minutes of silence
i knew i couldnt say those things
to remind him of my pain
coz that would mean hurting him
and hurting him
is the last thing i wanna do

yes. love makes you do the dumbest craziest things but that's why it's called love.
sometimes the pain is just worth it all
when u see your significant other smile=)

*spoken like a true lover=P

-hoping he's free tmr......

17 signs that you're falling in love

SEVENTEEN:
U LOOK AT THEIR PROFILE/PICTURECONSTANTLY

SIXTEEN:
WHEN YOUR ON THE PHONE WITHTHEM LATE AT NIGHT AND THEY HANG UP,YOU STILL MISS THEM EVEN WHEN IT WAS JUSTTWO MINUTES AGO.

FIFTEEN:
YOU READ THEIR LETTERS OR SMS OVERAND OVER AGAIN.

FOURTEEN:
YOU WALK REALLY SLOW WHEN YOU'REWITH THEM

THIRTEEN:
YOU FEEL SHY WHENEVERYOU'RE/THEY'REAROUND.

ELEVEN:
WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM,YOUR HEARTBEATS FASTER AND SLOWER AT THE SAME TIME

TEN:
YOU SMILE WHEN YOU HEAR THEIRVOICE.

NINE:
WHEN YOU lOOK AT THEM, YOU CAN'TSEETHE OTHER PEOPLE AROUND YOU, AllYOUSEE IS HIM//HER.

EIGHT:
YOU START LISTENING TO SLOWSONGS,WHILE THINKING OF THEM

SEVEN:
THEY'RE ALL YOU THINK ABOUT.

SIX:
YOU GET HIGH JUST FROM THEIR SCENT

FIVE:
YOU REALlIZE THAT YOU'RE AlWAYSSMILINGTO YOURSELF WHEN YOU THINKABOUTTHEM.

FOUR:
YOU WOULD DO ANYTHING FORTHEM, ORANYTHING TO SEE THEM.

THREE:
WHILE READING THIS, THERE WASONEPERSON ON YOUR MIND THE WHOLETIME...

TWO:
You were so busy thinking about thatperson, youdidnt notice number twelve.

ONE:
You just scrolled up to check & are now silentelylaughing at yourself.

LOL. it's kindda funny actually. haha. im feeling happier. why should i brood right? better be off. wanna get ready to study wit jt.

Happy anniversary sweetie=)

xx signed off at 2:52 PM

somehow, i feel that i look really fat in the pictures. OMG.

lol. today is a very busy day coz i have 3classes to attend. well..sortta. haha. 1st of all in math at 10.15 then social studies at 12. many ppl are skipping ss since it will be about soing seQ questiosns. i didnt want to go but i think my guilty conscience got the better of me. so im going. still dunnoe wad to do from 11 to 12 after my math.

can u believe our dearest mr hafiz is still ASLEEP? and it's already 0930!!! i thought he'll be up already so i didnt call him until 0915. my bad. he didnt answer his phone so i thought he was bathing but i was WRONG. he was asleep when i called home. LOL. lazy bum.

haha. then aft ss am going to teach jt poa&study a lil bit of math at mc all the way to 6. fuuuuhhhh! study whole dae?? think i'll be braindead halfway thru. hehe.

hj's goin to the movies. not fair!!! how come he gets to enjoy when im stuck in school studying=(

hehe. betta be off. need to change for school.

p.s lurve this song. picked this song for hj during the game. LOL. very meaningful=]

significant day

yet i feel empty

yes.

numb.

xx signed off at 8:58 AM

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

need i say more?

hehe. i lurve them to bitx)

*the first star i made has been given to hj. he betta be honoured man!! hehe! =)

xx signed off at 10:13 AM

Single, taken or crushing?
taken

Are you happy with your life now?
urm. sortta? LOL

When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him fast?
no. lyk hello!

Have you ever had your heart broken?
yes. twice.

Do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
never. why be with someone when u're gonna cheat on him/her?

Would you take someone back if he cheats on you?
no. a leopard never changes its spots.

Have you ever talked about marriage with another before?
yeap2.

Do you want children?
YES! hahaha. i lurvee children=P

How many?
never really thought about it.

Would you consider adoption?
urm. unless im infertile but rich then yes.

If someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his feelings?
write me a letter?? hahahaha. so oldies.

Do you enjoy getting into relationships?
urm. forgot how it was to get into a new one since ive been in my current relationship for ages. LOL. so do i still have to answer? haha!

Be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did?
hold hands? haha. then again. my last x was like 2yrs ago? haha.

Do you believe in love at first sight?
no. how can u possibly love sumone at first sight?

Are you romantic?
haha. he's more romantic than me so does that make me less romantic?? haha. should ask him that=P

Do you believe you can change someone?Into a better person?
yeap. been there. done that.

If you could get married somewhere, where would it be?
hello! my marriage wld be like 10yrs frm now. y the hell would i be tinking about it now??

Do you have feelings for someone right now?
yesh=)

Have you ever broken a heart?
haha. a heart? more of many hearts. =x

If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy you are deeply in love with, what would you do?
dejavu. LOL. why dont u ask HER what i did?

Are you missing someone now?
yes. very much.

*something fad made me do. LOL. i wld like
1.mirah
2.natiara
3.huimin
to do this!! hehe!

xx signed off at 9:43 AM

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

fuhh.

a really3 tiring day.

just got back. for the first time, half of 4E2 'cabot' math. haha. i mean i could totally relate to them laa. 2hours of math is AGONIZING ok? haha. i came in late. had stomach problems.

*evil grinss*

hahaha. yes. shall keep the secret between me&rabia=)

cant believe that guy pauto the rest!!!

took a bunch of photos. can u believe that my cam's bat went FLAT?? omg! was really pissed la. LOL. all hj's fault. nvr remind me to bring xtra batt. sobs. tnk god mariam has a cam. really3 lurve her cam. it's lyk reali nice. hehe. hope she finds the cam cover soon. hmm.

will upload the pics in a while.

btw
IHSAN&SILAS did an excellent job with the video presentation for class. and they were so humble about it. hehe. great job u guys!! =D

really sad that my term in junyuan secondary school has ended. wil miss 4e2 loads. we grew up..laugh and cried together. tink im gonna cry during graduation day. betta rbr to bring tissue paper!! LOL.

still unsure of the future. jc or poly?

*when the future becomes too bright, it seems bleak.

LOL.

yes. 1st in class.13th in level. L1r4 8. L1r5 12=D

i am ~~finally~~ numb.

xx signed off at 4:57 PM

Monday, October 02, 2006

oh no.

gastric cramps=s

hmm.

just found out that math is a compulsory subject in jc. OMG. i didnt noe. so much for having a brother in JC. lol. yes. ive been living under a rock. really believe that i was patrick the starfish in my other life. LOL.

*anybody care to shed some light??

yes. im cuckoo today. trying hard to ignore the pain in my tummy. sobs.

*crying out for sympathy*

brandon&hj BULLY me. haha. yes. everyone bully me. (as if i nvr bully them!) hahahaha!

still contemplating on jc. *thinking*

looking forward to friday. hope he's free. sigh.

gud luck to all those taking the nlevel exminations=)

planned my schedule for the next two wks. actually cuming back to school almost everday. but i think it's worth it. booked a couple of slots with my teachers. having consultation periods for almost every subject and im also having a study grp withmariam&jt for poa. all in preparation for the BIG o's. they're like soooo near. really scaree.

wondering which course i'll take if i decide not to go jc. probably mass communication. i really3 dont know where to go or what to do if i dont go jc coz i grew up with the aim of goin jc and i never really paid attention to poly courses. hmm. i have three months aft the o's to think. which is a big plus.

oh ya. hj just reminded me to bring camera tmr!! yea!!! im totally gonna snap away. will upload the pics=) took a bunch of pics with mariam's cam just now. but she's not online so she hasnt passed me the pics yet. hmm.

betta rest now. tummy's killin me.

oh ya!!! sumone has NICE muscles. kindda surprising coz he's like a plank of wood. hahaha! shall not put his name up coz he's 'paiseh'. haha. here's a hint. he's the horny guy=P

be the attraction, not distraction
`something i learnt in lit today.
sigh. am i a plain distraction?

dont cry to me

if u love me

you would be here with me

if you want me

come find me

make up your mind

xx signed off at 4:41 PM

Sunday, October 01, 2006

had a nightmare.

buzzed him after that.

sigh.

yes. i am elated with my results but of course not contented. if im contented then i wldnt have the drive to work harder for the o's right??

haha.

im used to pushing myself. maybe that's what helped me achieve the many things i never dream i could get. yes. i am blessed.

life's not perfect but we just have to make the best out of it. people have flaws but im happy that i have so many people who care=)

aunt gave me tons of clothes ydtrdae!! lurve the skirts especially! and she even gave me bvulgari perfume. how cool is that? yes. i am lucky!! =D

p.s
to someone hu cares: dun tink im taking math at jc. it's not compulsory ryt? my math sux. and even tho i hate lit too tink i'll be taking lit&malay at h2 level. havent really given it much thought. just wanting to experience the first three months and we'll see how everything goes from there. thanx so much for the information and for the concern!! hmm. do i noe u? just a random question=)

mom having second thoughts of me going jc. afraid i cant cope with the stress. hmm. we'll see.

will blog soon.

yay! mama promised to get me something for childrens day today=D

tnx hj

for being there

to pick me up

when i was at my lowest

and making me smile=)

*licking my wounds.

HAPPY CHILDERN's DAE!!!!

xx signed off at 9:26 PM