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Friday, December 30, 2005

bOnjour pEepx!! i am sooo back! ahha...yeah! finally home after such a loooong holidae... 5 daix u noe?? haha..sum people may say itx kindda short bt for me itx reli kindda long coz we never go on a holidae trip to m'sia longer than 3 daix..soo..u noe wad i mean ryt?? hehe..

ook..letx get started...sorie cldnt blog sooner..dad was sick n he was home for 2 daix!!! soo..obviously i cldnt blog ryt??

hehe...did sooo much shopping in kl!! i tink i literally shopped everyday! haha...d stuff there are cheap... managed to get a converse bag for $20...which is rm40...hehe...i bought lotsa clothes...n i reli mean A LOT..haha...mum literally spend all her money one me n my brox...we were staying at a hotel in town soo d stuff there were'nt entirely reasonable..there were sales soo of course some of the stuff were cheaper...
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the thing that used up most of my parentx money were definitely food!!! we cldnt find any place that had reasonable pricing so we were forced to like it at times square...the food was totally x..oh well..there isnt much to do abt it nweix ryt?? i cant believe we actually went to karoake!! ahha...honestly...im not d karaoke kind...im more of the sing-out-of-hobby kind..haha...bt it was totally fun...

went to watch king kong at d imax theatre on d second day..the show was soooooo sad!!! i was lyk crying at d part where the ape was abt to get captured by the idiotic director...i mean...look at dat animalx eyes... how sad u noe!!! haix....oh well..i am a very emotional n sensitv person...soo...cant blame me ryt?? hehe..

went to aqauria on the 3rd day...itx like undrwater world m'sian style..d place was kindda nice...it was kindda big in a way...made my caricature drawing there..n d stupid artist drew me as this ugly typical m'sian gurl!!!! urgh!! u had no idea how pissed i was...sob...

nweix...to cut a looooong stiory short ..we met lin, etc on 4th dae n went to d theme park togeda...i actually took 99% of the ridex!! haha...it was a totali funn dae...y wouldnt it wen my all time fav cuzz was there wif me ryt ryt?? haha...im too lazy to actually blog in the detailx soo my apologiex...hehe...

betta stp here...wanna play simx!! eheh...

p.s happie bdae to hj!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

btw...i took my ic liao...haha...soo ugly!!!

lurrveee

me!

*jux me*

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Tuesday, December 20, 2005

hey! goin kL tomolow...FINALLY a holidae!! haha...packd my clothes liao..hehe..so wun b blogging till lyk nxt wk? hehe...sorrie...

will be goin auntx hse later..her b'daex todae..hehe..oh ya..i promised a recount for sabrinax bdae party ryt? haha..totali forgot abt it...hehe...well..it was ok...kindda fun actually..got to noe abit more abt miza n sabrina..d chalet was superb n d environment was damn nice!! haha...dun tink i have anything else to blog abt dat..haha..

nweix..i'll be goin out soon to meet a certain sumone..haha..told him that we HAD to just stay FWENX...haix. oh well..guess thatx d best wae?? and nweix..i'll be goin kl ryt..so tot i might meet for d last time...dun wanna be meeting or goin out wif him i suppose? haix. u noe d saying

can't live with you..cant live without you..

datc d exact thing i feel...oh well...i so need a 'guy-free' life..haha...frm now on im gonna take everything abit more lightly i suppose?? coz else i'll be into imh soon..haha...y are there soo many irresponsible people in SC n they just seem to enjoy makin my life miserable ryt?

lol..oh well..i suppose thatx just life? hehe...gosh...i luurrvvee this bloggie! ahha..itx lyk my dumping ground...besidex mr j of coz..haha...just changed e skin n song aft MUCH difficulty...hehe...im head over heelx ovr eminem..jay chou n peterpan!! hehe..in lurve wif this son...when im gone...sooo sad...look out for d lyrics! hehe..

nweix...i betta go now...need to meet dat certain sumone at 11...soo i'll catch u guix aft i cum back frm da holx? hehe..

take cr!!!

mwaaahhhhh

lurve ya'll

*jux meeeeeee*

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Monday, December 19, 2005

-.-

haix. im back to feeling down again. s0bx. my life is such a HUGE roller coaster ride. itx so sick. haix. just back from a sec 1 camp meeting. gave d cookiex n christmas card to mr j. hex reli a superbly nice gui. i mean he totali can be bossy n irritaing bt well, nobodi's perfect.

grandma's back in d hosp. been a month already. haix. i dun tink i'll ever e able to be ready for IT. haix. how depressing. mr j told me to tok it out. haix. bt to hu?? i finally realiza that i have fabolous frenx ard me bt none wic i can truly cry my shoulder on. haix. probably rabia oni?? haix. i just dun have d energy to carry on. i need a normal life. haix. help.

*desperately in need of help!

-mentally unsound-

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Friday, December 16, 2005

+.+ peterpan-tak bisakah +.+

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[chorus]

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[chorus] x 2

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happie me!

im avoiding all three..u may say itx the wrong thing to do..bt in d meantime..i dun tink soo...guess itx bettr this wae..haix...im sorry!

nweix..had a superrr crazzy dae ystrdae wif yusa..lisa and lina...they're d best man! hahah...now i noe wad happenx wen u put a monkey..togeda wif a squirrel and a cat...hahah...utter chaos! i actually felt reli happy and my jaws and stoach were aching from laughter...haha...it started off with our meeting being cancelled at the very last minute! was damn pissd bt wad to do...mr ong had an emergency to attend to..thnk god i wasnt otta d hose wen i receivd da phone call frm hanis...unfortunately yusa was...so he dragged me to go teman him coz he didnt wanna come all the way to tamp for nutink ryt? haha...so i actually went to mc wif him...had breakfast for a looong time..hahah...den walked ard a bit and sat for lyk hours undr my block dere...haha.. can u believe dat itwasnt boring even though there was oni da 2 of us..hahha...hex juz so fun i suppose...haha...

den we managd to persuade lisa to join n so she did...den it got funny n crazy...den it got outta control wen lina joined!!! ahahha...we played stupid games..told lame n idiotic jokes n had d tym of our lives...been a reli long time since i actually just laughd like shit n enjoyd myself wif fwex! rawk on peepx!!! ahaha...n bcoz of yusa...im actually in lurvee wif indon music...haha...namely peterpan, shelia on 7 n dewa!!! hahah...im head ovr heelx for them! *grinx*

jst finished uploading a peterpan video up my fwenster! yeah!! haha...will b playing bad wif alisa diz aftn...den im gonna bake...hahah..did u noe dat playing bad wif ppl u dunnoe often makes u a betta player coz u play more seriously thus improving ur badminton skills..hahah..playing wif izz..wan n amad all d other dae was reli fun too! izz is an excellent player!!! hahha...woke up wif aches all ovr my body ystrdae though...hahah.. oh well...i wanna build on my arm n leg muscles u noE? hahah..

feel much more happy lately...i try not to get botherd by negatv stuff n keep everytink light n easy...haha... wish i cld wblog abt an smsing incident i had wif a certain gui...bt well...i cant coz gotta protect his identity..haha...just learnd frm dat incident dat lookx may b deceiving...haha...tnk god it was all imaginatv..hahah..

nweix...i did a certain survey lately and asked a cuple of close fwenx wad animal i wld represent and y...haha...received d funniest n most shocking answers...

`buttrfly-graceful bt can get scary
`eagle-sharp, confiden, quirky
`peacock-confident
`ant-hardwerking
`cat-cheerful frenly bt not to b messd ard wif

AND this is da bez

`fox-intelligent,wise,slim,sexy,sensual

hahah...datx d weirdest and funniest ans i got! hahaha...intrsting dun u tink...hahha...

glad dat i have reli good fwenx ard me! yeah...love 'em!!

betta stp here...will blog again on mon if possible...and will tell u abt sabrinax bdae party...hahah..

*jux me*

=wad u see is wad u get=

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Monday, December 12, 2005

unanswered quex!

*sighx* i hopex he readx it..

gosh...been chatting on msn..n herex u cum claiming u still love me...haix...y????? y does this happen to me? i mean u're sweet n all bt u remindx me of him...maybe i loved him bcoz i lovd u? urgh? this is so complicated..i knew u before i evr knew him...n i noe u'll nvr hurt me...still...u're attachd for godx sake! urgh! do i have a magnetic attraction to guix-dat-nvr-give-up or wad? damn...y does it have to turn out this way?

y do u have to cum back now? now dat it seemx im in control of my life..now wen u're wif another gurl...haix..i feel lyk im losing control all ovr again...how can u rbr all d tinkx we did? the thinx i did? wen it all seemed so far away...y do u have to be so swit...

haix.

itx all over now.

all gone.

i dun need any of u

im weak bt i'd rather stay alone.

i wish i cld tell u

[e.n.d]

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lettr?

-a pers0nal n0te to a pers0nal sumone-

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i n0e i may seem different to u lately bt guess wad? datx juz me...d gurl u knew in obs was d gurl everyone else knew bt d gurl u c now is d real me..i guess i have too many scars in my life n diz is just d way i am...a bit too depressing for u uh? haha..i've gone through alot of thingx and itx not dat easy for me to trust another person again...ive been betrayed, backstabbed, played n hurt more than once..and i guess i dun need a guy in my life.. rather stay alone now..i've learnt my lesson n i noe u're a reli nyc gui n all dat bt we're just very diff people... maybe abit too diff...i noe d saying oppositex attract bt...haix..im reli sorie...welll..u noe d saying 'there are many other fishes out in the sea'....ryt?

frenx?

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Sunday, December 11, 2005

sigh. feeling reli down sumhow. i've been meaning to blog in abt everything bt i juz dun have d energy. i read a certain sumtink wic tore my heart apart. i feel stupid, useless, played, torn, empty and the list goes on. n now i dun feel lyk doing aything bt juz think of all d mistakex i've made. im in so much pain now n i dun even noe wadx wrong. i cant point my finger on a particular sumtink coz i tink dat everythingx gone wrong! im so sorie to a certain hj for hurting him n leaving him n treating him lyk a fren now. hex reli special bt how d hell do i xplain to him or anyone for dat mattr wad im going thru? i myself cant put it in werdx. all i want to do now is cry like i owaes do. im so weak. urgh! sigh. hueverx reading..if u're my fren n u care abt me, plz...plzzz dun question me abt diz entry...sigh..

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*empty soul*

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Thursday, December 08, 2005

+.+ r0ller c0aster +.+

woohooo! finally aft a mth or so i have a com!! yeah...r0ck on dude! ehhe...im so utta my mind ryt? lol...dun remind me..i already noe..hehe...gosh...so much been happening dat m0z pr0b i wun be able to fit it all in here..im n0t exactly in d mood to blog today coz i soo wanna play my simx 2! heheh...soo i promise i'll be back nxt wk or sumtink to blog...lurve ya'll!!!!

muackx!

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