"I have not failed, I just found 10,000 ways that won't work"
-Thomas Edison
Friday, May 19, 2006
received all d resultx liao. tink i deserved d B's & C's coz i noe i didnt put in my best effort yet i still didnt do dat bad compared to otherx. but still my parents are unsatisfied. sumtimes it brings dwn morale. sigh. received an A for science!!! yea. THAT lifted my spiritx. still. sigh. why dun dey undrstd that i've stopped failing my exams. maintained that top positn in call (i hope). still. they're never satisfied. human beings often resort comparing. and unfortunately, im a victim to the verbal abuse that can get so bad sometimes. sigh. werds that truly pierce the heart & brings dwn the soul. perhaps what hurtx the most is the fact that it happens every other time with other tinks in my life. n that no one seems to undrstd. parents are never aware of the pain they cause in the words they sae. how meaningful a 'hello' or smile would be. sigh. esp mine.
received that anonymous note ystrdae. saw it in my pencilcase ystrdae nyt. it must have took place during recess. sigh. i dunnoe what to believe. i dun want to believe what others say yet this is not the frst time. WHY? why do others say such tinks if itx not true? why? why harm the wonderful relationshp we share? do we have such enemies? sigh. is it true? damn. this is so confusing. my headachex not gone. thank god the freaking injection doesnt hurt. sigh. love can be so complicatd.
do you love me like you used to? do you truly care? then why were you ever with her? urgh. that letter opened a healing wound. would you do the same thing again? my heart is yet to bleed again. n this time nutink you sae or do will heal it since you were the one that left a scar in my heart. sigh. all i can do now is cry. is there any solution? sigh. i lurve you. i need that guiding hand. that tender touch. those soothing werds & that winning smile. sigh. i wanna fall into your open arms.
