"I have not failed, I just found 10,000 ways that won't work"
-Thomas Edison
Friday, March 03, 2006
at home now. was in da jacket da whole day in skul. cant help but feel sick. but that aint gonna stp me from being crazee. haha. i have decided that i shall stay happy n fun n not let ANYTHING spoil my dae n even though that happens. i shall keep smiling coz reli. the reason im sick now is coz im stressed. too stressd. i have such a stiff neck n my body aches constantly.
sum people are reli acting cold towards me bt y should i even care?? they have a right to hate me to love me or to be frenx wif me. i cant be bothered abt anything anymore. reli am so tired of pleasing others. y should i care what others tink of me? i am ME. either u accept it or u dont. i noe i've borken n hurt 3 people that i truly care about. but i dun have any choice. i admit my mistakes. i cannot please everyone. blame me for everytink for all i care. i dun care if u backstab me, if u gossip abt me or wadeva other shit. im here if any of u need me. but till then itx ur decision to react wadeva u want towards me. hate me. i dun give a damn. i've played my part. said sorry n tried to make it up. i've paid my price. im always the target board. itx MY fault. never urx.
i lurvee u
no matter wad others say
no matter wad others do
i lurvee u
coz u're wa the heavens gifted me with
to a dear fren:
please look at the bright side. we both know everything happens for a reason. believe that there is a brighter future sumwhere n no matter wat it takes. u have to keep trying. stop asking why. im angry coz u DUN WANT to believe in urself. i noe u tink itx easy for me to say it but trust me. u dun even noe the things i've done and the things i had to go thru as a child n as a teenager. u don't noe so dun go ard saying i have no idea how it feels like to suffer.
