"I have not failed, I just found 10,000 ways that won't work"
-Thomas Edison
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
my lyf stinkx! +.+
STOP USING MY POST AGAINST ME!
urgh! people can get so heartless at tymx...hmph! cant u all see im human too n i make mistakes. n dat im also a teenager so i wanna have fun! gosh....how else can i put it across to u people?? i mean being president of da council isnt an easy job n im tryng all kindda ways juz to keep myself sane...all i nid is a bit understanding on ur part..i dun nid sympathy..i nid help n understanding..i CANNOT manage evertink alone...gosh! all of u are drivng me nuts! all i wantd was sumhelp to carry stuff n everyone runx away from me wif stupid xcuses...i mean hello! i need to get home too ryt? sum people juz seem to forget im human too n not some stupid mechanical robot dat does evertink dey want to.. i may be patient now bt dun test me.. dun take my kindness as a form of weakness...im about to reach my boilin point soon soo PLZ...puhleessee help meee out!!!
haix...i need to grab hold of myself ryt? gosh...im tryn soo hard....soo hard...n now i end up putting a stupid mask on my face n im smiling all d way as if d whole world is a great place to be in..my heart is torn into soo many pieces..y izit dat everytym i lurve a person..d person has to leave me...or i have to leave dem bcoz of one reason or anothr...itz lyk i can nvr find peace in my lyf...i nid to get a grip! haix...so much pain still run within me aft so long..
i wish i cld tell u how i feel inside...bt if i do..u'll hope for sumtink i cannot give...n so i have to lie AGAIN...haix...im so sowie for hurting u so much...u reli mean a lot to me...bt i have to stop myself b4 i reli fall in love wif u...coz if i do...all im gonna receive in return is a heartbreak... n ive got enuf of dat...im starting to grow sick of everitink....n i mean EVERITINK! all i want is a normal peaceful lyf...a lyf wif a man i lurve where we'd juz stare into d clouds n sae nutink....
my week is packd again as usual...d japan studentx are cumin ovr on d 28 n itx official! at least i got sumtink to look 4wad to...i gotta lyk sae d recollectionx again diz year..well..datx not too bad i guez..hope i rbr to reming fiz to announce to da skul abt da talentime 2ml...haix...so many tinkx to do wif soo lil tym..i reli2 hope i can pull thru...
diz iz such a long post! haha...guez itz coz i got more tym to blog everitink...aft diz still gotta blog in da LCDJ webbie...hmph...not too sure wad to sae...hmm...*tinking*
i used to think im diz strong gurl..both mentally n physically...bt sumhow dat provd me wrong..i tot i got ovr my 'emotional' being 2 yrs ago bt well...it wa...how do u sae it...'reborn'? ahha...im juz diz great softie inside wif no one to love...i wiish i cld care less...care less for d council...care less for my fwenx..care less for wad people think of me..care less abt everitink...at least i'll be bettr off w/o d burdenx...bt d tink is i CANT...itz juz me..i cum wif da package i suppose...oh well..im juz so tird of my lyf..haix...
hmm...im waiting for ah kong to be online bt hez not...wondr y...mayb hez sliping...oh well..i wanna blog in LCDJ now...so ya peepx take care! im outx!
-i need serious help dude!-
`i a here to find a way to you `to lurve u n to hold u in my armx. `i m here to learn from u n to receive ur love in return. `i m here bcoz dere is no othr place to be. `i m torn by anxiety in all my waking hourx. `i m lost w/o u. `a solitary bird with a flight to nowhere. `i m all these things n i am nothing at all. `this my darling, is my lif w/o u.
