"I have not failed, I just found 10,000 ways that won't work"
-Thomas Edison
Saturday, August 20, 2005
-itx all over-
sigh..here i am again blogging away...my movie trip was cancelld btw coz jul cant make it...sigh...Ncc was okay bt everitink went by today as slowly as ever! it was lyk so dull n dead...lyk got no life lyddat de...hmph...basically spent my day with bas....haixX...strong fwenshp? well..mayb not just yet...bt da bond is still there...sigh...how do i go on frm here?
haixX...how do i continue loving someone when i know that all those things were true??? how do i love a man that gave away his lisps to others? sigh...maybe a kiss meanx nothing to him...but its something very special to me n i wun just share it wif anione...i kiss the people i lurve...n i lurvED you...sigh...im so confused..if what u said was true y did u have to dat to her aft just a brief encounter?????? urgh...i fell angry...hurt...scard...sad...sigh...u WERE everything to me...now u reducd yourself to nothing...im FORCING myself AGAIN to forget you baby...why? coz as i said ovr n ovr again...i have nothing to offr except love n love is NEVER enuf for anitink in lyf...
why? why does it always have to be me to reject d guix...it hurtx so much coz i noe how it feelx to be rejected....do i love u still? or do i love him?????????? is wad im develpng for him love or juz a short term crush? is it what i feel for u? no...i'll never feel for anyone the way i feel for you...coz urx was my first love....my first love n my first painful heartbreak...i HAVE to forget you...im sorry...there are others that i don't wanna hurt...YOU gotta to try harder...just go for the many gurlx that are after you....
my heart is tearing into a million pieces...i fell so horrible for hurting u time and again...bt what CAN i do???i NEVER askd u to end it wif her...i nvr indicanted to u i lovd u...i hate myself for lyng...lyng to u...lyng to d world... Im MOVING on and NOBODY's gonna stop me...not even rabia....
