-i wish i cld stop bleeding within n dat u'd smile away my fearx-
=- XOXO -=
sigh..i felt a stab of pain today when i knew a special friend of my was feeling horrible...i don't need anybody to tell me..i just know that he's suffering inside..gosh..how i wish i could love him...i really-really want to love him...i just cant..i wish i cld force myself to though..i'd do anything to make him happy...n i hate myself for making him go through all this..damn! it hurts me so much to see him so depressed..i wish i cld make things all right..
im just feeling so horrible today...not only because of my special friend..bt also becoz...of all times u had to look at me...u just had to look at me today right? sigh...i know it wen u look at me switie..how can i not know aft so long? gosh...how much i long for dat gaze..i just feel so sad...its so hard to put my feelings to words...i wish i cld...then mayb d whole world wld noe was im goin thru..
i just hate it people ASSUME that im soo intelligent..well..guess what? im NOT..i know i shldnt be receivng this in a negatv light..bt i CANNOT help myself..i am not as smart as u people think i am...im just an average eenager that works her ass off during examination periods..PLEASE...im beggin you...PLEASE...stop treating me this way...i DUN want special treatment..for the last time...im like you..please stop using my post against me...sigh...i really need help..i CANNOT take this anymore...so many expectations...im juz an average teenager...wad more can i do for ou beautiful moronx?
i feel so dead inside...im basically still living coz i noe at least i have 2 friends that love me...n im living my ass off for them..so for those idiots that mean nothing to me..please let me live my life in peace! DO NOT test my patience..
*im sick*
-im sick of u-
=- XOXO -=
lurving nOnE
*fana*