"I have not failed, I just found 10,000 ways that won't work"
-Thomas Edison
Thursday, August 25, 2005
=friendshipx=
friendship is something that is extremely important to me..as a matter of fact..all sorts if relationships are important n xtremely fragile..they should be taken with care lest they will break n fall apart..
sigh..sad to say i lost a friend very dear to me..we were extremely close though we were of different race n religion..we went through so much together..sigh...looking back..i can clearly remember the great AND horrible times we experienced...im saying all these because i finally realized that i have forgotten the value of sharing a friendship..i guess i was too busy to think..i never sat down n realized that ive hurt her n another friend...i just went on with my life beacause i assumed that i didnt need friends and that i could manage..well..that was true at first but itz reli hard when u have relationshp or family problems n u simply dun have anyone to share it with..even if u did, sometimes u need a person that u noe WILL undrstand n will respond the way u need them to..
i admit i AM a very difficult person to please n a VERY difficult person to understand fully...i have frequent ups n and downs n when i keep things to myself for too long...i'll break down n just shuddup for the whole day...not everyone can put up wif my pratty behaviour at times n my insults...so i admit that im not exactly an angel..but so what? nobodu's perfect...leavng her alone last year was one of the few GREAT mistakes i made in my life..she's not exactly the perfect best friend n she's hard to please too bt well..she was always there for me..i do have other friends but its not the same if you dun have a person that can 'click' really well with you..
sigh..our bittrness to each othr made it all worse since we're working with each othr this year...its so hard for me to say certain things sometimes..what mr ong said just now had a great effect on me...sigh...i just wish i can make it up to her somehow...or is it too late??
sometimes i wonder why my life has to be so depressing...sigh...just gotta deal with it right? i just wish i could take it a bit more lightly like everyone's telling me to...i feel like a robot...sigh...well..at least im not hurting anyone...mayb i shldnt carry on all this with him...aigh...mayb i should stop talking to all three of 'em... sigh...mayb......
MaYbe this is better for u & me*
-faNa
No I can't forget this evening Or your face as you were leaving But I guess that's just the way The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes Your sorrow shows Yes it shows
No I can't forget tomorrow When I think of all my sorrow When I had you there But then I let you go And now it's only fair That I should let you know What you should know
I can't live If living is without you I can't live I can't give anymore I can't live If living is without you I can't give I can't give anymore
'just a sweet song by mariah carey that i love...the lyrics are so meaningful....
