"I have not failed, I just found 10,000 ways that won't work"
-Thomas Edison
Sunday, May 08, 2005
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im FINALLY outta it! definitely have more tym to study n relax...not in a rush n owaes tird now i guez...=) filing kindda relieved i suppose...*grinz* well...at least one of my MANY probz is settld...
im not tinking much abt 'em...msgd 'em diz morn...n now both r bz soo im free...datz y mangad to write in d blog...heheX..kiddin! ektuali im juz too lazy to write n gt not tym...hehe...itz not coz of d guiz i dun write...nweiz...i read a blog n i felt heartbroken reading those wordz...i mean...i reli dun wanna put 'em thru all diz...bt i reli dun want commitment...itz a lesson i learnt...d hard wae...i dn want to go thru all of it again...mayb till im ready..im independant n it will stay dat way...even till i get married coz datz how my parentz brought me up...nvr rely on anibodi...i dun nid sum gui to push me ard n lock me in a cage to do tinkz i DUN want to n make me end up lying to dem..haix..
y do u owaes have to noe wadz in my heart?? in my mind...in my eyes...u owaes noe....it touchez my heart...bcoz i love u...n im admitting it 4 d first tym aft so long...I LOVE U! haix...bt im ovrcumin it..bcoz i dun want tinkz to turn out dat wae...hez special to me too...u'll nvr undrstand...dun cum n tell me u will coz oni i doo...n i alone... i'd rathr hide in my hole now...be alone...stay alone n hurt no one bt urself...datz me...n it will stay dat wae...dun cum n tell me all typz of nonsense coz i HATE it....urgh!!! im drowning in myself...bt let me die alone coz all i nid iz myself...i learnt dat...n i will kip it dat wae..
